So I'm really glad that everyone I know had an awesome weekend... Cause mine wasn't too fabuous. I mean.. it was alright... but it still kind of sucked... I was frustrated all weekend... and I was constantly around people... I like people... but I love being alone too... and I wasn't alone at all this weekend... and it kind of has me in a poopy mood..

So... I'm going to talk about my best friend... She's wonderful... Funny... witty... very witty.. She is gorgeous.. individual.. intellegent and she has goals in her life...   Well, we don't talk to a lot of people at our high school...  Accept the thing is... she does... We joke all the time about how we have no friends... it's funny... but she does. People really like her. She has her peeps that she always gets together with. I actually don't. I talk to her... and I hang out with people on my volleyball team... and that's it. And not too many other people give me a second thought. It's kind of sad. I used to be really popular.. in the "it" crowd. But I didn't agree with a lot of things that they did.. and I lost all my friends basically... and people knew me.. so it wasn't like I could just meet new people... everyone already knows me... So I just have a few friends. I don't mind a whole lot.. only occasionally I get kind of sad about it... I'm ok with like 2 friends I suppose... but I'm sort of jealous of my bf right now.. Any guy that she meets almost immediately has a crush on her... A ton of guys want to ask her to prom... date her... but they're all pansies and chicken out... so she feels like no one likes her... or they're all big flakes.

Meanwhile... I just kind of watch.. My friend has an awful self esteem... I don't understand that... especially because she has no reason to. .. I have a great self esteem. I think I'm capable of doing almost anything I want. I don't have a problem when people are better than me at something. I'm pretty optimistic... This guy I know jokes about how I hate everyone.. I don't. I actually like a lot of people... I just don't like people that are fake.. and a lot of people at my school are very fake... Anyway... I sometimes think that's why people don't hang with me... cause it comes off that I don't like people... but I do... I like real people...

I don't know if I have a point to any of this... I have to go eat now though... Maybe I will blog something later with some sort of topic or center of focus. Peace.