religion according to Webster- "something one believes in and follows devotedly; a point or matter of ethics or conscience"

I'm not talking about your faith.... I'm talking about your religion. Your religion may come from your faith or it may not... what ever it comes from ... find it... and follow it.

I'm not a very religious person, but am becoming more and more religious... I have things that I believe in but not necessarily follow 'devotedly'... like I believe in recycling, eating healthy, giving to charity, trust, friends, enlightenment, forgiveness and family...   but do I display these values in my everyday life?

I would like to say I try to... but do I always?  do I back my ethics with my actions... religiously?

Maybe my life would be better if I were to do that very thing. Not so that others will see how I live my life and want to be like me... but so that I live a happier life... and of course I hope that others will learn to live their life the way they believe and be happy as well.

Maybe for a day... take it a day at a time.. live the life that you want to live. Live how you believe... get enough sleep tonight... read a book... do something that makes you happy... "life is too short to do anything other than what makes you happy" as my very wonderful intelligent best friend once said. I agree. And when you're happy... other things, maybe that are less enjoyable, don't seem too bad...

I'm trying out this happy thing. If it works I'll let you know... or you can try it for yourself...

Oh... but don't expect to be perfect.. expect to fail... but be happy about it... cause that only means you're human and have room to grow. : ]

I have had too fabulous days... in a row! Today was great... I bombed yet another test... but I'm still happy... WTF? Haha.

.. So now that I'm a happy friendly person again... there is this cute guy in my chem class...  ; ]

And it's my half-birthday.

Today...

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Was a good day!

Hooray!

I woke up this morning... in a really bad mood... it was raining... but it was an okay rain.. it was warm out.. I like the rain when it isn't cold. Anywho.. I skipped my 7:00am class and sat in my car while it rained and I read my history book, listenin' to Deathcab. Then I went down to Chem, still feeling shitty and wanting to just sleep... And I decide to take a couple of my hydros that my doctor gave me... and I feel better.. for the rest of the day. I was in a great mood today. I was chatty and happy. It was great.. cause I haven't been like that in a while.

I love being happy. I like talking to people... I hate complaining.

And so it's a beautiful day and I'm going to go buy a book and read outside... cause I can. And I'm going to continue being happy... because we shouldn't waste our time not being happy.

So I'm really glad that everyone I know had an awesome weekend... Cause mine wasn't too fabuous. I mean.. it was alright... but it still kind of sucked... I was frustrated all weekend... and I was constantly around people... I like people... but I love being alone too... and I wasn't alone at all this weekend... and it kind of has me in a poopy mood..

So... I'm going to talk about my best friend... She's wonderful... Funny... witty... very witty.. She is gorgeous.. individual.. intellegent and she has goals in her life...   Well, we don't talk to a lot of people at our high school...  Accept the thing is... she does... We joke all the time about how we have no friends... it's funny... but she does. People really like her. She has her peeps that she always gets together with. I actually don't. I talk to her... and I hang out with people on my volleyball team... and that's it. And not too many other people give me a second thought. It's kind of sad. I used to be really popular.. in the "it" crowd. But I didn't agree with a lot of things that they did.. and I lost all my friends basically... and people knew me.. so it wasn't like I could just meet new people... everyone already knows me... So I just have a few friends. I don't mind a whole lot.. only occasionally I get kind of sad about it... I'm ok with like 2 friends I suppose... but I'm sort of jealous of my bf right now.. Any guy that she meets almost immediately has a crush on her... A ton of guys want to ask her to prom... date her... but they're all pansies and chicken out... so she feels like no one likes her... or they're all big flakes.

Meanwhile... I just kind of watch.. My friend has an awful self esteem... I don't understand that... especially because she has no reason to. .. I have a great self esteem. I think I'm capable of doing almost anything I want. I don't have a problem when people are better than me at something. I'm pretty optimistic... This guy I know jokes about how I hate everyone.. I don't. I actually like a lot of people... I just don't like people that are fake.. and a lot of people at my school are very fake... Anyway... I sometimes think that's why people don't hang with me... cause it comes off that I don't like people... but I do... I like real people...

I don't know if I have a point to any of this... I have to go eat now though... Maybe I will blog something later with some sort of topic or center of focus. Peace.

Yesterday when I woke up on the bathroom floor where I had spent the entire night, I was feeling better.. I had finally fallen asleep for about an hour which was more than I can bragg for the night before. I skipped my 7:00am class so I could sleep another hour and went to my 1st block. I was feeling ok. Not great but not as bad as the day before, but I didn't want to be at school and I was afraid I would have to take a test in history that I was/am totally not prepared for. So I called my mom and she signed me out of school and made me an appointment with the doctor. The doctor poked around my stomach and said that the pain was probably my appendix and scheduled a CT scan at one o'clock that same day. So I grabbed a quick lunch with my mom... got my scan and got back to my house at about 3:00. Well the doctor called with the results in about 30 minutes and said to go on to the hospital... I was scheduled to have surgery that night... What a day right?

Well I had my appendix removed around 8:00 that evening. and woke up two hours later. Waking up was a fitful experience but soon passed and I was taken to my room and I was feeling ok and slept. I left the hospital this morning. I'm not feeling sick and I don't have much pain or soreness. Just a tad. I'm only bummed that I can't do much exercise for about a week and I'm feeling bloated and lazy. But I'm ok and I will be well in time for my volleyball tournament in Houston... Thank God.